Enough.

You've just met me,
I'm not sure what you're thinking,
But I think I can guess.

I'm a little bit wild,
But relatively organised.
I somehow end up talking a lot,
But I love hearing other people's stories.
I love to be creative,
But I enjoy appreciating what I already have.
I can be giggly and seem immature,
But I've learnt when to be wise and collected.
I can be lazy and pathetic,
But I delight in serving others.
I can be spontaneous and emotional and irrational,
But I'm passionate and I dream big.

I'm confident in who I am,
But I still have fears and worries.
I know I'm not perfect,
But I'm trying to be better.

This is probably more or less who I am now.
But I wasn't always this way.

There was a time when I was very broken.
I'd been hurt and betrayed and abandoned and used.
I'd allowed myself to settle for less than I was worth.
I'd denied myself the right to say 'no'.
I'd made the same mistakes over and over again.
I'd wished the outcome would somehow be different.
I'd hoped that I would be enough.
I'd pushed away those who tried to support me,
But not far enough that they couldn't catch me,
Every time I fell.

However, over time, I was shown that I am loveable.
I was given people who held me and guided me and loved me.
People who could do this, because their strength was not their own.
The one who is love and strength and peace was holding them to hold me.

Through them I learnt that I can be put back together.
I learnt that I can be healed.
I learnt that I am worth more.
I learnt that the scars show where I've become wiser.
I learnt that I can say 'no'.
I learnt that sometimes I just need to be brave and walk away.
I learn that He has made me enough.

He has named me and called me,
He has made me and delights in me,
He has gifted me and equipped me,
He has strengthened me and protected me,
He has chosen me and redeemed me,
And he loves me.

He is more than enough for me,
and with Him,
I am enough.

~ This is for my beautiful friends who time and time again show me who I am, what I am worth and who all the glory goes to. I am so blessed to have seen God use you beautifully to do his work by lavishing his gifts upon you and I am so excited to see you continually working in partnership with Him for the service of His people. This is also for the God who has carried me, healed me, given me dreams and passions and loves me unconditionally even when I'm a complete ninkenpoop. Praise God from whom all blessings flow.